Fd Chapter 3: Friend or Faux

In my search for new friends, real ones who get me and genuinely care i found someone. Some with the exact same birthday as me, now while i was off planning birthdays and situating my money to put them through training to go to school and get a job, they're soul purpose was to bring me down.

Let me back up for you, How do you know when someone is really your friend? When people say they're friends what does that entail, is there a contract signed or a commitment made..No, just consensual chatter about nonsensical things. After what I've gone through i strongly suggest if your going to be close friends with someone, make nice with all of their friends. Here's why.

I met a girl lets call her Karen, now i thought she was a sweet kid, cute as button fun to be around all that. We spend days together while our mutual friend was down in Florida, Karen and I had so many plans together we went to a a party together and decided that would be the destination of our birthday bash. She and Io never had disagreements or girly fights, but there was this guy that she had slept with a few times. Now me and this guy Mark, became close I know what your thinking and not that kind of close that like unwritten code he's off limits. Mark and I were close as friends, he was cool guy we would talk til 5 and 6a.m. That's when it all began, they green eyes came out and she began to tell him not to be so close with me and began to antagonise the situation every single day.

Being a normal guy he wasn't trying to hear that non sense which is why He and I were so close, I never brought the drama because I'm not for it either, even though i totally ignored this about her i never really looked at her differently. I never said what a bitch a liar and a scandalous little cunt. Now I know, what led to me acknowledgement of her being totally insane was her claiming she was raped by this very man that she was so head over heels for. We were on the phone and I told Karen this is all her fault she shouldn't have slept with him, he isn't the only culprit here. I said "You and him had consensual sex" In burst her with loud yelling "Did he tell you that did he tell you that..Nicole Did he tell you that" I cut in with ---Yeah he.. "Omg i will go to the precinct right now!" That was it the moment the biggest lie she could have ever told came out. When i told her to stop it right there she changed the subject. It was at the point i realized something was seriously wrong with her. If you asked Mark he would probably say i was playing a game where i knew what everyone had in there hand, and i bet all the money on the table. Really i was just totally and completely honest so i never had to worry.

After all that i forgave this psycho girl, and decided OK maybe it was just a little spell, So i went out with Karen the night before Labor day. We went to pick up her cousins and for the most part it was pretty OK except no one besides me and her were putting in for alcohol. This bothered me but not enough to spoil the night, Now let me inform you I'm not your everyday drunk. If i get drunk I'm not a sloppy drunk I'm just loose, and calm. Now at this party there were about 25-30 bikers, and they began to pick off who they wanted to ride on the back of they're bikes, Little to my surprise one of them picked Karen. I asked Karen if she was just gonna leave me there drunk, she said I'll be right back. Totally unaware of who got on a bike and who didn't. So now I'm standing there angry that the only person at the party i knew left me drunk, alone. In her crazy world i was fine because on of her cousins was there. Where was this cousin when i decided to get home on my own in the middle of Brownsville drunk? well she was right there she watched me walked off and didn't say a thing. So tell me KAREN how was i safe with her?

This was all i needed i went home i got a ride, She keeps calling me but I'm so pissed off i don't even wanna hear her logic. In her world her logic is basically "I never do wrong" So a guy i met at the party calls me and says how come you weren't at the party i saw your friends there but i didn't see you *screeeecchhhhhh* HOLD UP! The same friend who was so worried? is now at a new party?? see she doesn't know i know all this but all these things I've told you is enough to just say OK she's no good for me. I'm outtie so anyone who thinks i was too harsh on her should def comment below and tell me what you think.

How well do you know your friends?

I think it's time you all reassessed some of the things you know about then and think about what else they could do to disrupt the normal balance of your relationship.

FD Chapter 2 ..The Men In My Life Part 3: The Newbie

The most recent entry into my life is one that i call"The Newbie", although he came about last year we remained friends up until recently when things started to sway in a more romantic manner.(by flirting i mean he's frisky and so am i) Although i have yet to spend actual one on one time with sed person, he has become somewhat important to my daily life. Something that he may not be aware of is that I have been totally trying to put up a block. I cant risk having the same thing happen like the hulk.

You see the newbie is the father of a newborn about 2 weeks, now that being said imagine that situation, I've been with guys who have kids and they usually at some point or another get reacquainted with the mother of their child. Now him and her are not exactly getting along to well right now, but who's to say that in a couple months when I'm knee deep they wont start to re strike interest in one another. (I know I'm wrong for it but i can shake that fear) Also i cant shake the feeling that him knowing this fact may lead him to say fine if you don't believe me ill go elsewhere. I don't want to cause drama for anyone that's not my nature, and so far he seems to be a really good guy. Attentive, educated, silly like i like, and just plain sweet.

I would have to be mentally insane to pass this one by, but you know maybe he'll have patience with the fact that i have definitely been through a lot with the men in my life.(I'm straight up damaged goods) Who knows maybe he'll be the one to fix everything. I can't rule out the fact that he is the best thing for me at

the moment, I just hope I'm good enough. Through my eyes he could do far better than me.(as fabulous as i am ;0)) I have a feeling I'll be touching base on "Th Newbie" again sometime on the journey to the end of my book

To the Newbie:

I know you've never heard me say half of the thing i just wrote in the above passage but, I felt as though writing it was the only way i would get it across to you. Although you've amazingly sweet there's a part of me that believes you could possibly and unintentionally break my heart and leave me just as badly damaged as i am now, if not more. So all i can ask from you is patience and consistency don't even change anything about yourself cause I'm totally smitten with you as you are. (I'm so soft ugh!)

CATCHALATER!

FD Chapter 2 ..The Men In My Life Part 1

Well you'll think I'm extremely bold for exposing the men into my life, but i want to introduce you into my insane world. (Nothing more insane than my dating track record) Here's how i plan on doing it i will give each person a title to which they should be able to identify that I'm speaking of them (So they can curse me out but not too bad do to discretion)

They will be as follows: (Stay tuned for your chapter)

The Incredible Hulk: Part 2

The Newbie: Part 3

Stay tuned as I update, daily each part. (I'm definitely gonna be in trouble after this)I'm not afraid of getting flack for this, I mean you all have played a role in the making up of my list of qualities to look for in my "Perfect Guy Preferences". Don't feel bad because each and every one of you has something I would like to keep.(Some parts of you makes me want to stab you repeatedly)

Catchalater!

Fabulously Demented: Chapter 1 ..The Gossip Cycle

On my journey to writing a book i find myself paused by many road blocks (mainly sleeping late and late night jonesin). It's time to buckle down and write things you little fuckers actually enjoy reading or enjoy hate reading either way I'm paid :0). What will my book be about? my daily life as a Fabmentalist. Like yesterday, "the exTERMINATOR" ugh and my many family quarrels.

One recent incident i have to tell you all involves my cousin. Now if you a female you have that one person who you tell everything, and well if your human you have that one person who doesn't know how to keep their mouth shut (usually the same fool) Well I told my cousin about a certa

in encounter i had with a mutual friend, what does she do tell my older cousin, her sister. Now this alone sounds pretty OK, but hear what happens next.Upon her next sighting of sed individual she says to him "Don't hug me you nasty, i heard you mess with my cousin"(Fu#*ing Bit$% Co%k Suc*&% ahh!!!)

He then calls me 30 seconds after thins encounter jokingly implying the situation, yeah no big deal to him (strutting around like a bull amongst 20 cows) I then call my younger cousin to whom i originally told, she lies as expected. Then finally reach my older cousin guess what she does. She goes into super defense mode, Yelling attitude the whole 9 yards, as if it were he business being discussed ha!.(This whore bag is lucky i wasn't around her when i found out *jungle roars*)In c

onclusion i shall never tell this very young immature girl anything her tiny mind cant handle, I say her mind couldn't handle it because obviously head was gonna explode from the massive amounts of info in her mind. So mine came out to make room for more gossip and nonsense.

Point to make her people, go old school grab a friggin journal and stop telling that loud mouth whats happening in your life. (I bet they say they wont but do it anyway)

Catchalater!

Men, Bullsh** Lines & They're Definitions

So while watching MTV last night and going through my own emotional battle, Hustle & Flow was playing, now in the movie he says "I got love for you" and that reminded me of so the many times men have said that to me, and what it might actually mean.

In turn "I got nothing but love for you" and things to that nature just means I'm going to say what you want to hear for now, and being as they didn't say they love you, at a later time that can be flipped on you. In a later convo you'll say i thought you loved me, then they'll say "No, I said i have nothing but love for you".. whats the difference? smh the difference is the language between men and women, they say one thing which translate into something else in women talk.

Another one would be, "I don't even speak to my own mother everyday", Now when anyone flies the coop and leaves mama bird, it comes with the territory as an adult not to speak to mommy everyday. What men don't get is its not that you didn't call or speak for the day its the fact that we all know if he wants to do something he will do it. No matter what if he wants to go to the store and big a jumbo sized bag of chips he'll take time out of his day and do so. It is the point that you didn't want nor care to Call or get in touch with you.

How about "I'm just not ready to be in a relationship", this one is another mix up do t

o the language barrier, Men sometimes really just aren't into being with one person sometimes, and sometimes its just they're way of saying they don't want to be tied down. Now the reason we get mixed up is because women feel as though once again if you want to do something you will do it. If a man is totally consumed by the pain of a previous breakup, (if he is in fact a real man!), he will do anything in his power to have this person that they feel can make they're life better. Its like if i was really worth it you would be with me, but if I'm not what you want and not making you feel a certain way then I'm just another woman in your life no more or less important than another female you know.

"Why do we have to put a label on it, why cant we just leave it as it is?" HA! Screw you all who say that. To men its just a label supposedly, but if ipso facto that is

true then in return why is it that we cant just put the label on it?.. i mean its not a big deal right, its not important to you?..so why not do it to please us. It's bull that's why, really it is important to him, because when questioned by a family member of friends they will have to give you a title and you can have one of two titles, Friend or Girlfriend.

This brings me to my next point remember a song call "Shawty" by Plies, ladies i cant help you with this one, shawty is a word that sounds like girlfriend but isn't quite considered so. If your someones shawty, there's a chance he's cheating, well cheating in our world, normal in his.

Titles you DO want to be associated with (Girlfriends, Girl, Wifey, Mrs,)

Titles you DON'T want to be associated with (My Bitch, Shawty, Chick, Boo)

Catchalater!