FD Chapter 2 ..The Men In My Life Part 3: The Newbie

The most recent entry into my life is one that i call"The Newbie", although he came about last year we remained friends up until recently when things started to sway in a more romantic manner.(by flirting i mean he's frisky and so am i) Although i have yet to spend actual one on one time with sed person, he has become somewhat important to my daily life. Something that he may not be aware of is that I have been totally trying to put up a block. I cant risk having the same thing happen like the hulk.

You see the newbie is the father of a newborn about 2 weeks, now that being said imagine that situation, I've been with guys who have kids and they usually at some point or another get reacquainted with the mother of their child. Now him and her are not exactly getting along to well right now, but who's to say that in a couple months when I'm knee deep they wont start to re strike interest in one another. (I know I'm wrong for it but i can shake that fear) Also i cant shake the feeling that him knowing this fact may lead him to say fine if you don't believe me ill go elsewhere. I don't want to cause drama for anyone that's not my nature, and so far he seems to be a really good guy. Attentive, educated, silly like i like, and just plain sweet.

I would have to be mentally insane to pass this one by, but you know maybe he'll have patience with the fact that i have definitely been through a lot with the men in my life.(I'm straight up damaged goods) Who knows maybe he'll be the one to fix everything. I can't rule out the fact that he is the best thing for me at

the moment, I just hope I'm good enough. Through my eyes he could do far better than me.(as fabulous as i am ;0)) I have a feeling I'll be touching base on "Th Newbie" again sometime on the journey to the end of my book

To the Newbie:

I know you've never heard me say half of the thing i just wrote in the above passage but, I felt as though writing it was the only way i would get it across to you. Although you've amazingly sweet there's a part of me that believes you could possibly and unintentionally break my heart and leave me just as badly damaged as i am now, if not more. So all i can ask from you is patience and consistency don't even change anything about yourself cause I'm totally smitten with you as you are. (I'm so soft ugh!)

CATCHALATER!

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